Now to sound like any other person in my current situation; LIFE FUCKING SUCKS.
yes, folks! The censor button has been terminated on this one! Currently, I am waiting on a tattoo shop to call me back on an apprenticeship, and my mind is beset with woes! For example: My art is NOT good enough! Seeing the Tattoo artists' portfolios did NOT help! They make my attempts seem so juvenile and feeble! And I'm such a novice compared to these guys! Well I am, but....ONTO THE RANT!
I am so fucking nervous, its almost like I'm in a slasher movie waiting for a killer to finally nail me the fuck down! I'm gonna fail on getting this! I know it! I'm going to sound like an attention-whore but fuck it; My art's too mediocre, and too horrible! Yes, people I went there! Don't like? WELL FUCK YOU TOO!
I am humbled, but at the same time so freaking terrified! Fuckin' aye I could eat myself outta house and home right now(yes, I am a nervous eater!)! And as if that weren't enough, oooooh you wait til you hear this
the bloody bitch that she is, has been not only hanging out with my friends, but she is talking extreme amounts of shit behind my back to my friends
! I'm amazed her eyes aren't brown!!!! She's been also talking mad shit about my mother, my brother and my grandmother!!!
I am so fed up! I want this job, but I am afraid of being turned away! My aunt doesn't know when to shut her fucking filthy, lying, conniving mouth! FUCK MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!! I don't know what to do!! Seriously! If I drank, I'd be intoxicated from trying to deal with this bullshit! But alas, I have no alcohol; or drugs, for that matter!
All I have is my coffee, a death wish, and blood in both eyes! I'm fed up! If ya need me, message me! If not, don't fucking bother because I am done with people! I just hope my job works out!